Memories....

"Try to throw the picture out of my mind
try to leave the memories behind
Here by the ocean
wave's carry voices from you
Do you know the truth
I am thinking of you too" ~ MLTR (Someday)


It takes such a long time to explain oneself that maybe things are suppose to be the way they are. No matter what you do, it wont change.
You can run, hide, but you cannot escape the memories from the past.
As explained in the lines of the above paragraph by MLTR.
One tries their best to get back to their life, to the world they had left behind, by shutting their memories in the deep part of their heart. 
Not telling anyone about it, about the pain it might have caused.


But on every occassion the pain re-surfaces, leaving a parched soul to speak to someone close to you heart, the same someone who you are trying to forget.


And when that happens, you end up blaming yourself for being weak, for being a target of all those memories you were trying to suppress in the deep part of the heart.
And this vicious cycle continue for a long time. 
For some, its days. For some its weeks, for some its months, and for few it is years.


Everybody likes to hear their share of three word's.. for some its, "I LOVE YOU" and for many its "LET IT GO"
Not everyone is brave, but they still try.
As the phrase coined by Herbert Spencer, "survival of the fittest", only those who take things in their stride emerges as a winner.


And winning is easy as long as you dont give up.

Thoughts!

"Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself

Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily, defeated by you
Just when I thought, I reached the bottom" - Evanescence

And that bottom/ground never comes!

Do you dream? 

Have you dreamed of you falling in a deep valley?

Or may be just falling without touching you the ground? 

Sleeping is sometimes pain for few.... Few people do get all these weird dreams.

They want to sleep but cannot, and they end up working late on some weird project (O ya, that happens too often!)

My friend had once told me, 'if you hide you feelings well, you end up flashing plastic smiles alot. And if you bottle up your feelings, you end up having bad dreams'.

Now does that mean that people who have bad dreams, they bottle up their feelings? Or does it mean that they flash plastic smiles?

Wearing a mask on your face, sometimes is good. But letting that mask be there forever isn't good for anyone.

God gave us one life, and if we don't enjoy it, then whats the use of this life?

Thats what I have been trying to tell my best friend... someone I haven't had a word with, for sometime now....

She has been in hiding for couple of weeks...months...trying to forget something she is not able to, keeping her contact to the minimal amount of people who calls her or walks in her house.

Lets hope that she forgets the past which is causing her pain. Lets hope that she forgives herself for whatever she thinks she is responsible for. Lets hope she moves on with the good memories.