Love you MOM!!!

“ And I can’t help falling in love with you....” – UB40

I want to say this to my mother... but she aint around! I dont know how to convey this to her that I love her alot!!!! 

Its 10.00 pm here... and she is in shimla, probably already in dreams!
I remember the time when she would pick me up when I would fall on the ground with a thud! I remember how she would cry with me when I cried cause of my headache. I know how much she has given me unknowingly......................

I love my mother... everyone does but my mom is very precious to me... I wish I could just rewind the time... live every moment when she felt proud because of me...... I wish I could just rewind and live those moments where she embaraced me tight..... feeling the joy of the world!

I love you mother..... for everything!

If today I am alive, writing this blog...... its all because of you!

Salute to you mom.... I love you alot.... and you are one of those things I never want to loose!

'God.... thank you for giving me such a loving mother'.

UNWELL...

"All day staring at the ceiling

Making friends with shadows on my wall

All night hearing voices telling me

That I should get some sleep

Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on

Feeling like Im headed for a breakdown

And I dont know why

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell

I know right now you cant tell

But stay awhile and maybe then youll see

A different side of me

Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired

I know right now you dont care

But soon enough youre gonna think of me

And how I used to be...Me"

- MatchBox Twenty

Been relating myself alot to this song.... Simply love the wordings!

I have been feeling so lethargic.. so tired that I dont feel like getting out of my bed in the mornings and when its time to go to sleep... I cant make myself land in the world of dreams.... SIMPLY WIDE AWAKE!

I am hating this session of trying to sleep and trying to wake-up! 

WHO CARES!!!

Why do we care for people?

Is it really our inner concern that we show or just a role we enact… a play, to show care?
It is a worrying situation if someone shows so much concern for you. And again, you get worried if nobody cares for you! God made men…. And then he made women!
He gave both of them a heart and a brain each. Men and women, both use brain and heart. But a woman uses her heart more often in her personal relationships than a man.

Not being biased here, but I have seen men being more insensitive towards family matters, wherein a woman will take the charge and solve the problems at home. I have seen my colleagues, especially men, bringing their personal worries at work, and discuss them with their colleagues and asking ways to escape it. ‘Dude I have to attend the PTA meeting at my kid’s school…. I am feeling so exhausted already… I wonder if I will ever go.’….. Wherein a woman takes it in her stride, puts that event in her calendar as an important one and makes sure she is there to attend the PTA without any regret of leaving the job on a half days notice!

Today the world has just one slogan…. ‘Live and let die’…. People don’t care what’s going around them. They don’t care who lives and who dies. They want to live alone and because they don’t make good friends they die alone too. I sit at my desk and observe people messaging their colleagues “hi” and “how are you”… and the colleague is sitting right next to them. Why people don’t take a life seriously? Why can’t people just turn around and say a ‘HI’ to their colleagues instead of messaging them? Just questions on my mind because I see this everyday!

Sometimes you don’t find time to call your friends, sometimes when you have time, you don’t have energy left to talk to them….but you miss them just as you would miss breathing the air under water. But still you don’t end up calling your friends or the one you are missing.

The technology has developed, but at the cost of suppressing your feelings and giving a helping hand to your laziness!!!

Scribbled!!

“These wounds wont seem to heal this pain is just to real

There’s just too much that time cannot eraze”

Thats one line from one of my favourite song, sung by one of my very favourite singer.. and I have no words how to explain it cause every word speaks for itself!

 

There was a time, when I was interested in imagining myself on stage, dancing all alone, wearing black clothes. May be today I understand why I imagined myself that way. Black is the colour of death... and dancing alone means I dont need anyone to take care of me! A LONER TYPES! Though I gel with people easily, but very few make it to my telephone diary!

 

One day while walking on the road, I saw a small boy, sitting on the edge of a shop’s stair and his grandfather was tying his shoe lace. I felt like capturing that moment then and there... But I did not had my camera that time. How a small child make an elderly person do things without making the elderly person feel bad.. and how an elderly person just bows to the command a small child. That is so much of love and affection the elders have for the small ones.

 

“I would do anything for you

I would climb mountains

I would swim all the oceans blue

I would walk a thousand miles

Reveal my secrets

More than enough for me to share

I would put roses round our door

Sit in the garden

Growing potatoes by the score”

 

That is one paragraph from one of the best I have ever heard! Those are all words generally guys end up saying to their loved ones... And every sentence is a lie!

A guy would never do everything for a girl... he won't climb a mountain or swim for her or walk just to talk to her.... and forget abt growing potatoes in the garden cause they will be busy watching an F1 race or a cricket match!!!!

Like madonna says...'Dont explain yourself cause talk is cheap’.... 

Thats why a girl should never ask for a clarification cause most of the times she gets all lies!

 

“Ke sach ki talaash hai... durr aakaash hai..

Manzil paas nahi... kya tu mere paas hai?”

Its been 10 days, I am just thinking about these lines over and over again. Life is not bed of roses... You come across so many challenges every day.... every minute. Just to control your anger is a challenge in itself! 

Like Nelly says in one of her songs, ‘I'm running, I'm running, catch up with me life’ .... I am running cause I want the life to chase me.....

 

But HE always make everything perfect and that is why I still hope to find my peace of mind.

May god fill everyone’s life with love and affection all throughout. – Amen!

 

MUSIC - The essence of my life.....

"I live among the creatures of the night,

I haven't got the will to try and fight,

Against a new tomorrow,

So I guess I'll just believe it,

That tomorrow never comes" -- Sung by 'Laura Branigan '

I used to relate myself to these lyrics alot sometimes back.... I had no will to try and fight the daylight, the truth or say, the will to try and fight my fears. I just took a day at a time, or say a second at a time. Thought, tomorrow would never come, and whatever it is, is just gonna end..... Your fears sometimes make you so weak... you have nobody to look around, you find noone to calm you, everyone is giving you their opinion, but noone try to tell you its alright, all will be fine!!!!

When I was in school, one line from one famous Pink Flyod song would keep repeating on my mind, whenever my teacher would lecture us on something we already know about...

"We don't need no education......

Hey! Teacher! Leave us kids alone!"

Oh! I actually meant that line......

Most of my school teacher were so nosey! Ofcourse my favourite was the one who would give us values and ask us to move along the line and not keep holding to something you dont belong to!

Today I have learned that it is not easy to say sorry.

One song always play in my mind today, and I mean every song I sing to people... cause every song has a hidden message in it!

Today I have a good control over my anger, but i want full control where I dont get hurt by anyone's words or views.

Like said by Alan Parson in his song,

"Dont say words youre gonna regret,

Dont let the fire rush to your head"

I would just keep my calm cause it becomes so easy to conceptualize what people are trying to tell you, if it is a lie or not. Anger makes you put everyone in the same basket, it doesn't give you a chance to think about the problem and focus on the solution!

I miss my school life, my school friends and enemies.. YES! I miss my enemies as well... it was so much of innocent fun... blackmailing classmates with secrets that we find out about them. Oh! So much of fun!

I miss good things I had, and I cant recollect any bad things.

LIFE IS GOOD! LET IT BE THAT WAY O LORD!

AMEN!